Hello! I know it’s been a while, but it was for a pretty good reason. Originally, I wasn’t able to blog much because of the work load in college. I missed it, but I had other priorities that I really needed to keep on top of. Then it was because my laptop had such low memory that I couldn’t actually open wordpress and write anything (I have a second hand laptop now that luckily can load wordpress). After that, I moved out of my mums and I now live with a friend. Then depression hit me, and I couldn’t really do anything I enjoyed. My brain was made up of fog.
Currently, my way of dealing with it has been reading. I’m reading more than I have been in my whole life. I’ve just finished my 41st book, in just under two months. That’s about as much as I used to be able to read in a whole year. Not only will I probably reach my goal of 100 books in a year, I might even reach over 200. It distracts me, I’m absorbed out of my own life and into another. Dealing with pain when it is not my own and its fictional, it has an end, is always easier for me.
As far as updates go, I don’t really know what to say. Living out of my mum’s house has been great. I love the independence and the control I get over my own life, including what I eat and what I do with my free time. I especially love the silence. Noise has always been a huge problem for me and living in an enviroment where its not so much a problem anymore has widly benefitted me.
It’s also my last year of college. It’s more terrifying then it is exciting because I still don’t know what to do when I finish. It’s only three or four months away. I’m studying Animal Management so, obviously, I want to do something with animals. I’m currently in volunteering at two different dog daycares two days a week. When I finish college, I’m probably going to volunteer more and perhaps take on new roles with the free time I have. That’s about all I know.
(weight, food, eating) alongside that, I’ve started to eat healthier in the past few weeks. I’m keeping track of what I eat and I go the gym a few times a week (I haven’t been able to go for a few days because I’m sick, and I would go more often than two or three times a week for half an hour a time, but doing anything when you’re depressed is really hard). I’ve already lost nearly four pounds. My weight has been a constant battle for most of my life, and now is as good a time as any to tackle this.
That’s….all I really wanted to say. I don’t feel any better. I just felt like writing so I grabbed at the opportunity before it vanished again. I missed this hobby. A lot.