SPOILERS! / I Saw Avengers: Endgame!


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Hello! I saw this movie on Monday, so the 29th April, and I just really wanted to talk about it with someone and then…remembered I have a blog, so here I am! I’ve put a spoiler warning in the title and at the start of this post but I’m going to put it here again because I have anxiety and I like to be extra careful – this post will contain spoilers.

I’ll be honest and say my MCU love is only recent, so maybe there were a few references in this movie I’ve missed, as I’ve watched as many MCU movies as I possibly could but there are still a handful I haven’t seen yet. An example would be Captain Marvel, which I was going to see but on the day I was going to go I ended up in hospital and I still haven’t seen that one yet so…oops. And, despite Spider-Man being my favourite superhero, I have yet to see any of the recent movies for him either! And there’s been a lot of recent movies for him since Toby McGuire.

So, for refence, here are the MCU movies I have seen:

  • Avengers: Age of Ultron
  • Iron Man
  • Iron Man 2
  • Ant-Man
  • Captain America: The First Avenger
  • Iron Man 3
  • Guardians of the Galaxy
  • Avengers: Infinity War
  • Captain America: The Winter Soldier
  • The Avengers
  • Captain America: Civil War
  • Black Panther

And the MCU movies I haven’t seen:

  • Thor: The Dark World
  • The Incredible Hulk
  • Thor
  • Guardians of the Galaxy: Vol 2
  • Ant-Man and the Wasp
  • Doctor Strange
  • Captain Marvel
  • Spider-Man: Homecoming (probably the one I want to see the most next to Captain Marvel)
  • Thor: Ragnarok

I’m just going to start by saying the battle scene was amazing. That part where Captain America said “Avengers, assemble” gave me chills and at the same time made me want to cry because it was the last time the Avengers, all of them, would ever be together to do that again. It truly broke my heart and, for me, it felt like a powerful line.

I know a lot of people thought Captain Marvel was arrogant in this movie (and wow was she giving of massive queer vibes), but I didn’t because the arrogance was well placed and well earned. She was badass, amazing and kicked butt. It made me extremely excited to see the movie because, if it wasn’t for her, they may never have won the war against Thanos.

Speaking of the women, can we just talk about how adorable it was when they all protected Spider-Man because, lets face it, he’s just a kid and really doesn’t know what he’s doing – that’s part of his charm. That moment was ICONIC. I think it was one of my favourite scenes in the whole movie, when they all just crowded around him to protect him. I really can not wait to see Homecoming, eventually, because honestly Tom Holland is absolutely ADORABLE and clearly the best Spider-Man (and I say that as someone who has been a fan of him since I was a kid).

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(look at hiiiiiim, awe, he’s adorable)

I do have some rants about this movie, though, of course. Several points, really.

My first one is that this movie lasts three hours. I don’t really hate that, because I couldn’t think of a moment that I could take out of this movie. It was beautiful and I adored it, however there was no break in the middle. I feel like, in part, this is a little ableist because things like toilet breaks, meds, etc, they all have to wait until the movie is over and a lot of disabled people (my partner included) ended up not being able to see the movie because of this. I really think that most cinemas should have a break in the middle, or even several breaks, for the sake of disabled people and other people who really could have benefitted from them.

The second one is a common thing that you’ve probably heard being spoken about and that’s the fact that Thor’s depression, PTSD and weight was a running joke in the movie. As someone fat and depressed, I know that weight gain is usually caused by depression, PSTD, anxiety or some other mental illness/trauma. This was even referenced in the movie. Although people like The Hulk showed sympathy, others like Rocket just made fun of it. Luckily, the cinema i was in, only the children laughed and I can forgive children. There were several fat people in the audiance, and probably several mentally ill people,  so I think I got lucky there because laughing at a joke that hurts me in the privacy of my own home compared to in a public area where people laugh at my expense is a very different experiance. I feel like it could have been well handled if it was done right, but it just…wasn’t.

The third one was how the death of Iron Man was handled, and how the death of the Black Widow was handled. A big part of how I felt after leaving the movie was joy and I adored it, I’m still gushing several days afterwards, but part was anger about that whole plot of the film.

With the Black Widow, the scenes before with Hawkeye were seriously stunning. Probably one of the best visual on-screen moments I’ve ever seen, and the heavy emotion behind it elevated it by a lot. It was awful how they were fighting each other over who should die – of course, Marvel picked the Black Widow over Hawkeye and that was red flag one on showing who (well, really, what group) they value over who

When she died, she was mourned by Hawkeye briefly and when he returned back to base there was temporary upset among the Avengers about the fact she wasn’t there anymore and anger about how they couldn’t reverse this. And then she was just…forgotten.

This is such a contrast to how the way Iron Man and his death was treated, even though they both died for the cause. First of all was how mourned he was, and then how big his funeral was. Black Widow wasn’t even mentioned in the funeral, it was like they only remembered and valued him. Then the Avengers didn’t pay respect to her and commented on how they only missed her. Even Hawkeye, in the end. I feel like there they gave her a massive injustice, and I don’t think I’ll ever stop being angry about how they treated her.

Although the funeral was beautiful, I won’t argue that. How the groups of people who loved each other kept together in happiness because they defeated Thanos, but they also felt what it cost them. It was powerful and emotional.

The absence of Captain America was also upsetting. How he let himself live a life with his love, how gorgeous it was, and how he surrended his position in the Avengers in order to do so. It was adorable, and super heartwarming. I really liked that moment, even though I’m so upset that it means Captain America is no more and we lost three Avengers in one movie for good. At least Spider-Man/Tom Holland came back!!!

I’m sure there will be more I want to add, especially when I see it a second time and I have time to truly review it properly more than just gush and discuss but until then this is all I have! I’m really excited to see future movies, as Thor as joined Guardians of the Galaxy and as much as I adore the original team (my rats are named Groot and Rocket), I can’t wait to see what this will add to the future movies.

Until next time!



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